2018 has been very interesting for me. There have been many, many good times – promotion, Dubai (maybe we will write a post on this soon), new car, met many great people, etc. But it has also been a year of STRUGGLE regarding my overall health.
I hit my first major goal weight towards the beginning of the year (if you missed it, read here) and ever since, I gained some weight back and have been bouncing between 210 – 230 pounds. I would lose a lot and then gain a little or just gain and “not really care”. My fitness journey for 2018 has been rough and up until a few months ago, I just didn’t understand why.
I realized that I had let my mental health go by the wayside. I was constantly on the go and wasn’t taking the time I needed to mentally heal after disappointments, stress or just the day-to-days of life. I secretly started to hate working out, seeing my trainer’s face (hopefully he never reads this), healthy foods and ultimately myself for the repetitive cycle of losing and gaining the same weight. I started to become ungrateful for things I once enjoyed, like my job, and with the holidays approaching it was only getting worse. I have this disgusting habit of allowing the holidays to get me down. Instead of being grateful for family, friends and life, I self-sabotaged my joy by focusing on what I don’t have and believed I “deserved” by the end of the year.
After my last breakdown at my trainer’s house a few weeks ago, I knew seeing a therapist/counselor was no longer an option. I made the call with the support of Jasmine and made an appointment. The first appointment was strange to me, but it was good to speak with someone who didn’t know me and could give me insight on what I was going through and tools to overcome it. I had my second appointment this week and I feel “light” if that makes sense. The stresses of my mind have calmed down and I even enjoyed working out and making healthy food choices yesterday! I feel as if I am back in control of my mental and I know that everything (but my weight) can only go up from here!
I have to decided to continue seeing the counselor almost monthly to maintain my mental health. I encourage anyone who feels as if life has been overwhelming to seek help before it becomes too late and you’re so far down the hole that you don’t know how you will escape. After only two visits, I feel much better and I am excited about what my future holds. I believe that once your mental is in order, everything else will follow!
It’s also important to take your vitamins, get enough rest, workout, eat right and laugh to maintain your overall health. Be sure to add all of those things to your list of to-dos and let’s commit to being our overall best selves!!!